:3 

I might be a little bit in love. Just a little though.

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I might be a little bit in love. Just a little though.

"Here’s the thing. Men in our culture have been socialized to believe that their opinions on women’s appearance matter a lot. Not all men buy into this, of course, but many do. Some seem incapable of entertaining the notion that not everything women do with their appearance is for men to look at. This is why men’s response to women discussing stifling beauty norms is so often something like “But I actually like small boobs!” and “But I actually like my women on the heavier side, if you know what I mean!” They don’t realize that their individual opinion on women’s appearance doesn’t matter in this context, and that while it might be reassuring for some women to know that there are indeed men who find them fuckable, that’s not the point of the discussion.

Women, too, have been socialized to believe that the ultimate arbiters of their appearance are men, that anything they do with their appearance is or should be “for men.” That’s why women’s magazines trip over themselves to offer up advice on “what he wants to see you wearing” and “what men think of these current fashion trends” and “wow him with these new hairstyles.” While women can and do judge each other’s appearance harshly, many of us grew up being told by mothers, sisters, and female strangers that we’ll never “get a man” or “keep a man” unless we do X or lose some fat from Y, unless we moisturize//trim/shave/push up/hide/show/”flatter”/paint/dye/exfoliate/pierce/surgically alter this or that.

That’s also why when a woman wears revealing clothes, it’s okay, in our society, to assume that she’s “looking for attention” or that she’s a slut and wants to sleep with a bunch of guys. Because why else would a woman wear revealing clothes if not for the benefit of men and to communicate her sexual availability to them, right? It can’t possibly have anything to do with the fact that it’s hot out or it’s more comfortable or she likes how she looks in it or everything else is in the laundry or she wants to get a tan or maybe she likes women and wants attention from them, not from men?

The result of all this is that many men, even kind and well-meaning men, believe, however subconsciously, that women’s bodies are for them. They are for them to look at, for them to pass judgment on, for them to bless with a compliment if they deign to do so. They are not for women to enjoy, take pride in, love, accept, explore, show off, or hide as they please. They are for men and their pleasure."

I’m so deep in this thing….

I want you, I can’t stop thinking about you, but I’m gonna have to slow you down because I’m scared you’ll turn out like the rest of them.

But I have a good feeling about you.

I often get too excited for things and I never play it cool. I guess I should tone down my excitement because this isn’t really anything yet.

And also—-don’t put your eggs in one basket until you’re sure.

March 10

A whole season has come & passed, and I’m doing better.

I take my time, that I do. Word of advice: Let your hearts heal first before you make rash decisions. You could end up being even more mangled than before!!

Anyway. Career paths are changing. Actually studying LEED now. Whoa.

Hope it works out! I got plans baby. Big balla plans.

I feel like sometimes I’m not good enough for people…like I’m not cool enough for anyone to want to hang out with me. Like the way I look, how I act, the way I dress, my job, my friends, my family, all of those things are not good enough for people that i admire to want to stay.

Then I try even harder to keep them, and that just scares them and in the end I’m just exhausting myself and I end up a lonely shell of a person whose only fault was that she tried too hard for people who didn’t care.

I often wish I had never met people like him and HIM…

I don’t know. Both of them have done a damage to me, and I’m trying my best to get back to that girl I was before, but it’s no use.

What is it…..why am I so unlucky at this?

remash:

tdm house ~ bbats + tirado


Omg

remash:

tdm house ~ bbats + tirado

Omg

sterlingstylelove:

Spent all day cleaning and organizing. So exhausted, but love that my desk looks clean!

sterlingstylelove:

Spent all day cleaning and organizing. So exhausted, but love that my desk looks clean!